Striving for perfection.

I’m trying so hard and I find it infuriating when there is people who want this less than me, doing so much better. I’ve spent a whole day studying yet I feel no further. I want this so bad and I’m trying so hard. But I know I’m just not good enough. I spend all day filling my head with land law, tort, medical etc etc, there’s so much it can’t be humanely possible to remember all that we need. But other people seem to be fine, why am I not? And now i’ve seen the provisional exam timetable. 4 exams in 5 days. It’s going to be non stop exams. Hence why i’m hitting the revision 2 months early. But it’ll never be good enough. I’ll never been good enough. Things never go the way I’d like. And I’m not being one of those people moaning because I didn’t get laid by the “well fit bloke in the club” or because my hair isn’t perfect today. I’m talking about something I work so hard for. I spend my life thinking, breathing and recieting the law in my head. But It’s never enough. I simply lack that spark that makes you perfect.

I feel like I’m losing control over everything.